Day Sixteen: Write about your relationship status.

My heart belongs to the most amazing and wonderful man - the love of my life, my soulmate, my companion, my bestfriend - Joshua Matthew Miller.

He is in the US Navy and is currently on deployment. He left September 11th, 2010. I am proud of him and what he is doing for this country, along with all of the troops. He is amazing in every way. I love him for who he is and what he stands for.

I prayed to God to place my heart in the right mans hands, a man that will cherish my heart and take care of it forever. I prayed for a man that loves God as much as I love God. A man that is willing to wait for me because I made I promise to God, my Mother and myself to save myself until marriage. I wear my purity/promise ring everyday that represents my promise.

My prayers were answered when I met my Joshy and he said to me that he prayed for me as well.

Now I wear a new promise ring that symbolizes the love Joshua and I have. When he said “YOU are worth waiting for…” my heart was instantly his.

[The other purity/promise ring I had before the promise rings Joshy and I got…I put away in a safe place. My Mother gave me that promise/purity ring on my 21st birthday.]

God has blessed me with the love of my life, the man that has my heart forever. I love him with every beat of heart to my very soul.

xoxo

Day Fifteen: Write about something you worry about a lot.

I worry about the future.

I know I should not worry about the future because I am living the life God has planned for me.

I have to let go and let God.

I made paths/plans for the future to take, like if a certain situation happens then I'll take this path and if something else happens then I will take that path. But I have come to realize that the only path I must take is towards God and His Love. Then from there God will lead me in the right direction, the right path that is meant for me.

I need to stop worrying and put my faith and trust in Him completely.

GOD IS GOOD.

xoxo

Day Fourteen: Favorites...

Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.

Book - THE BIBLE.

Movie - The Little Mermaid

Band/Singer - I cannot pick just one. I LOVE MUSIC. 'Nuff said.

Food - Mmm food. Hahaha. Lemme see...red velvet cupcakes. YUMMO!

Day Thirteen: What are your plans for the future? Far and near.

I have so many plans, all leading to different destinations in life. But my plans are just...plans. I have let go of these plans and I have placed my life in God's hands, it is only He that knows what my future holds. I am just taking it one day at time. I am walking the path God has created for me. Like I have said in previous entries...where I am and how I got here in life is where I am supposed to be. Where I will be in the future will be according to God's plan. I walk on this path of life with Him in my heart. I am excited because I know whatever is ahead will be worth the journey.

Blessed.

xoxo

Day Twelve: Write about the worst day of your life.

Hmmm...the worst day of my life is probably the day I got into a car accident. My poor Altima died that day. I thank God that I am here because it was a major imapact. I fell asleep at the wheel. I honestly do not remember from when I excited the freeway to the concrete wall I crashed into. Major pain for a few weeks after the accident. So yah that would probably one of the worst days of my life. I have a few other worse days...but it involves certain people and I do not want to name any names. LOL.

My 26th Birthday.

Yesterday I turned 26 years old!! Here is a pic with my darling twin aunties. They came over to hangout with me. I love them!

Ugh.

I hate feeling so down. I try not to feel so sad, but I cannot help it! It totally sucks. Ugh.

A couple of things have been running through my mind...

- My honeybee, Joshy, I miss him so much. I really miss him. I felt like crying today. Gotta love being a pro at faking happy once in a while when I am really feeling sad. No one wants to see a sad panda. LOL.

- Feeling unaccomplished. Yay for being almost done with school...only three more months left and I will finally have my BA. But, afterwards? I DON'T KNOW!! I do not want to be at my current place of employment forever. There is so much more I know I can do other than be glued to a computer for 8 hours. My lovely cousin passed the RN boards and is now officially an RN. I feel like I am so far behind in life [career wise] that it makes me sad. I am by all means not jealous. I am so proud of her. She worked so hard and God guided her through all of it. Her accomplishment made me think about how I haven't accomplished anything yet. I know we all go through different motions, and it is all up to God. I know this. I get sad about it, and the next day I am okay. I cannot regret the choices I have made because where I am in life today, is where I am supposed to be. I am okay. I will be okay. God is here. I have faith in Him.

- Insecurities. UGH! I am still insecure about my body. I am trying so hard to love myself. It is a learning process mos def. One day at a time. But golly geez its tough. After losing 70 lbs I should be content. But it is not enough. Ayyyeee...I hate having fat brain. LOL.

- WORK! I am over it. I am thankful to have a job and a steady paycheck. I thank God for it. But the work sucks. LOL. I have work ADD. I need something new to learn and do. Hahaha.

Okay...my mind is clear now. Got it all out of my head. HAH!

xoxo