December 31, 2010

What I Look Forward to in 2011...

[in no particular order]

- My Joshy coming home from his deployment.
- Graduating with a BA in Psychology.
- Reaching goal weight.
- Moving out and moving in with my honey.
- Hanging out and bonding with friends.

that is it for now. LOL.

xoxo

Day Four: Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.

To be completely honest...this year, 2010, is a period in my life where everything went constantly amazing. Today is the last day of an amazingly great year and all the amazingness will continue on into 2011...I can feel it.

Hello, hello.

My darling Joshy called me a couple of times yesterday (now that it is Friday early morning - 12am, I have to refer to yesterday. LOL).

Finally when we spoke there was no lag. Just hearing his voice made my heart ache. I miss him so much. We have about 2.5 months to go and as of right now my honey has been away for a total of 111 days. I am so happy that the days go by quickly. His homecoming is going to be absolutely amazing.

Currently he is in Bahrain.

I miss his face! I have not seen any recent photos of him. Well, just the one from the November birthdays dinner they had on his ship. Their Facebook page had an album and he was in a couple of photos.

Gaaaaaah I wish he were home right now! It is New Years Eve and I want to kiss him at midnight. Le sigh.

Our first NYE and we are not with each other. I am sad about that but I just have to keep telling myself that he is serving our country and fighting for our freedom. I am very proud of him.

I think I am going to sleep now. I do not plan on getting up early. I will force myself to sleep in. LOL.

xoxo

Fashion Statement.

It was super cold in the house so I decided to bundle up. I just grabbed whatever from my closet. I didn't care for matching clothing. LOL. My dear Dad unit said - "It's going to be 2011...no one matches anymore."

That was an awesome moment. Hahaha.

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December 30, 2010

My NYE Dress.

Sooo below is a picture of me in my NYE dress. I took the picture in my Broski's room since his room is the only one with a huge mirror. Hahaha. I still cannot decide if I am going to wear boots or heals. The shoes I am wearing in the picture belong to my Mother. I just wanted to see what I look like with heels. LOL. So far two of my cousins said boots and my Mother and twin aunts said heels. Hahaha. I am going to hit up the mall tonight and browse for shoes and then I'll decide. Oh and yah that is my boy Bailey hanging around. Hahaha.


xoxo,
Jesse

Day Three: If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?

I am not the kind of person that will do something extremely outrageous if I only had 24hrs to live. I wouldnt go sky diving because I'm gonna die anyway...why speed up the process? LOL. I wouldn't go out and splurge money on things that I wouldn't be able to use.

I honestly would like to spend my last day of life at home surrounded by the people that I love...and love me in return. That is what I would want...to just cherish the last moments with my loved ones in laughter, smiles, love and happiness before leaving this life. That would be enough for me.

December 29, 2010

Text Message.

I received a text message last night from one of my Psychology girls - my bff4l Lily. I knocked out early so I didn't read it until this morning, it brought a smile on my face after I read it. She is a beautiful person both inside and out and I am blessed to call her one of my lifetime friends =)

Text Message:

Jessie, I'm sitting at work logged in on FB. I went to your profile, and saw that you posted a link to your blog. I was really touched to see all that you've written on it. You're truly an amazing beautiful person. It was very insightful, and made me feel blessed to call you my friend. Hang in there Jessie. This wait is only making you stronger in ways that you may not see now. Your relationship with your Joshy as you call him lol Is deeper than most people that date for years can dream of achieving. True love waits in many respects, and one day you'll look back at this and simply smile. I just felt like sharing that with you. I miss you and may our tea/coffee date arrive soon. Love ya dear friend :)


Day Two: Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.

What is a best friend? To me the definition of a best friend is very vague. I mean best friends come and go. I believe in true lifetime friends. Those friends that you make in life that will be with through out your lifetime. For the sake of this 30 day challenge I'll refer to them as my besties/best friend, but I really mean lifetime friends =)

Hmmm where should I begin?? I guess I’ll start with my besties from the 6th grade and on.

Alison and Eleanor - Ali, we have known each other since we were toddlers. My Grandmother used to babysit us. We didn’t become friends until I moved to Zamorano Elementary for the 6th grade. Eleanor, I met in 6th grade with Ali. We became an instant trio. Our friendship went on through junior high and high school. Eleanor went to a different high school than Ali and me. But we still kept in touch and hung out whenever we could. Then college came around and I left for San Francisco State University. We grew apart for a few years. Now that we are in our mid twenties we have rekindled the friendship. Well, more so Ali and I have rekindled our friendship. Eleanor got married and we hear from her once in a blue moon. I love them mucho.

April and Elena - my San Francisco State University besties! We are still friends to this day! We try to keep in touch but we all have busy lives. Plus it has been hard since I’ve been back in San Diego. They are awesome gals. I miss them!

My Psychology Girls - I met these girls a little over a year ago. We had majority of our psych classes together. I love them! They are amazing women. Even though we get busy with life, work, relationships and kids, we are still close. No matter time and distance we always pick up where we left off. They still manage to contact me and find out how I am doing. And I do the same to them. Truly lifetime friends.

Ra- my bestie. What can I say about this guy? He is RAWRsome! LOL. He is always there for me when I need a shoulder to lean on. We did go through some tough times with our friendship, but I do believe it made our friendship stronger. He is a true best friend. He is a lifetime friend =)

Joshy, my honeybee - My best friend, my soulmate, my companion, my love. He is my everything. He is the love of my life. <3 There are not enough words to describe how I feel for this man. He is all around amazing. I love him for who he is and everything he stands for. I love my Sailor <3

xoxo,
Jesse

December 28, 2010

Day One: 15 Facts About Me

Random Facts!!

1) My favorite color is purple.
2) I secretly want to be an undercover ninja.
3) I wear a promise ring.
4) In relation to #3 - I am still a virgin and I am not ashamed to say it.
5) I had my first boyfriend at age 20.
6) I started dating again at age 25.
7) I have met and am with the love of my life and he is the one I have been saving myself for =)
8) I like rootbeer floats.
9) I love bows and anchors.
10) I love having short hair.
11) I lost 70 lbs.
12) I want to be an officer in the Navy.
13) I am a bag/purse whore.
14) I wear makeup to look like I’m not wearing makeup.
15) I love Hello Kitty.


30 Day Challenge

30 Day Challenge - ACCEPTED

From: heckyahtumblrchallenges.tumblr.com

1) Post 15 facts about yourself.
2) Write about the best friends you’ve had over the years.
3) If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
4) Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.
5) Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.
6) When was the last time you were truly honest with someone? What was it about?
7) Post your favorite quote.
8) How do you feel today?
9) What’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
10) What’s the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
11) Write about the best day of your life.
12) Write about the worst day of your life.
13) What are your plans for the future? Far and near.
14) Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
15) Write about something you worry about a lot.
16) Write about your relationship status.
17) Bullet your day.
18) Post one confession/ secret.
19) Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
20) What did you eat today?
21) How has your life changed over the past year?
22) Find a horoscope site and post yours.
23) Post your Tumblr crushes.
24) How was your week been?
25) Write about your first kiss.
26) Write about your best/ favorite kiss.
27) Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
28) If you had three wishes, what would they be?
29) Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
30) Where do you think you’ll be in 5 years?

December 22, 2010

2010 Favorites!

I was inspired by my bestie to blog about 2010 Favorite Things. I was going to make it all shnazzy with pictures like The Ryan Wears Prada...but I don't feel like sitting here for a long time hunting for pics. I still gotta workout! So I am just going to list them. Well...its not even a long list. LOL.

Here I go...
  • My 2010 Toyota Venza - Vinnie
  • Moleskine Journals
  • My MacBook Pro
  • My iPhone
  • My Promise Ring with J&J 06.14.2010 engraved on the inside
  • Treadmill & Elliptical
That is pretty much for the material things I guess. LOL.

The things that really made 2010 a great year...
  • Meeting and being with my soulmate, my bestfriend, my companion, the love of my life - Joshua.
  • My Family being healthy and happy.
  • My close circle of friends that are still in my life =)
  • Being healthy for once in my life
  • Building a relationship with God
  • Being alive to live each day with my love, family & friends.
I look forward to 2011. It is going to be one of the best years ever. I can feel it in my bones. 

xoxo,
Jesse

December 18, 2010

Sad Panda.

I am a sad panda right now. Golly I miss my Joshy so much. Less than 50% to go...and my honeybee will be home.

One more day passed is another day closer to the love of my life coming home <3

December 14, 2010

6 Lovely Months.





Today, the love of my life and I have been together officially for 6 months. The picture above is one of our first photos taken together.

(Yess I am going into cheeseball mode. LOL.)

My love for him grows more and more each day. I have my soulmate, my companion, my bestfriend, my love...

God has truly blessed me with an amazing man. He is my everything.

I love Joshua Matthew Miller

06.14.2010 <3



December 04, 2010

Super Fun Saturday

Let me start from the moment I woke up this morning...

I woke up around 6:30ish this morning which kind of sucked. I try to sleep in, but I am so used to waking up early that I automatically wake up between 6 and 7 every weekend.

I did a 30 minute run on my good ol' treadmill. It was a good run.

I got ready and waited for Mom and Broski to get ready and waited for uncle Sonny and auntie Alps to arrive.

We had lunch at Onami. OMGOLLY! It was sooooo goooood. I love sooooosheeeeee. Then we hit up Mission Valley and Plaza Bonita.

I did buy a dress to wear on Christmas!! It is absolutely adorable. I cannot wait to wear it. All I need are shoes and my outfit is complete =)

Now we are watching The Sorcerer's Apprentice.

Fun times with mi familia.

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My honeybee called me today while we were at Mission Valley mall. I first missed his call and I was sooooo upset. I held on to my phone and hoped he would call back...aaaannnnnnd he DID!! I was so happy. We talked a good 10 minutes. It was 3 something Sunday morning for him. He sounded so tired. I didn't want to keep him up for so long. We said our I love you's and I miss you's. It was just amazing to hear his voice. I miss him so much. I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART <3

I cannot wait for the day when we are reunited.

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I ate waaaay too much today. Ugh. I only ate once but it was mucho soooosheeeee. LOL. It is okay though. Tomorrow is a new day!

I will workout hardcore after church tomorrow.

I also still have a whole lotta homework. Oy vey.

xoxo,
Jesse

December 03, 2010

A Very Mellow Friday Night

-Watching Forbidden Kingdom

-Sitting on my favorite spot on the couch.

-MBP on lap.

-Wearing ginormous sweat pants and huge Morse High School field hockey hoodie.

-Mom, Broski and Bailey all sitting around the couch as well.

--awesome Friday night indeed.


Today went by rather quickly [thank goodness!!]. Each day that goes by is another day closer to the love of my life coming home.

We are almost at the half way mark. As of today he has been gone a total of 83 days. Golly gee I miss him so much. I haven't seen his face in almost three months! He sees mine almost all the time. HAHA! I send him short video messages via email every now and then and then there is Facebook. LOL.

I love him so very much.

Tomorrow should be a fun day. Hopefully it does not rain. My uncle is coming over to do his laundry and then we are all going to Mt. Laguna and Mt. Julian to hangout and take pictures. Yay for family fun photoshoots. LOL. I just want to dress up and get all dolled up.

I am in a blogging mood. But what to blog about? I really need to get into writing on certain topics to make my blog more interesting.

I'd post pictures but I hardly use my DSLR nowadays...only because my Mother took it from me. HAH! I do plan on investing in another DSLR. I think I will get a Nikon =)

Ooo I have one more month and I can upgrade to an iPhone 4. I am pretty stoked! I am thinking about going to AT&T and see if they can upgrade me early. I mean it is only a month.

Also, I am thinking about getting another phone but with Sprint. My plan is to get a phone plan for Joshy and me. That way when he is away he can call anytime and of course no charge. I like the HTC Evo. Oh and the monthly is way cheaper. So I am going to look into that.

What else? I guess I am done. HAH! Seriously...my next blog post will be more interesting. Scouts honor.

xoxo,
Jesse



December 02, 2010

Mirror, mirror...

THANK YOU to my lovely cousin Camille [worth-.tumbr.com] for helping me in this time of low self-esteem.

Yes I admit these past few weeks have been hell on my health. I've been obsessing with weight and just pushing myself past my limits to reach an unrealistic goal. I know I should be happy in that I lost 70 lbs in the course of one year and managed to keep it off. But I am still not satisfied...I am not happy with my body. I have yet to learn to love myself and until I do that, I will forever be pushing for an image that is just not me.

She texted me today to read -- 1Peter 3:3-5

Your beauty should not come from
outward adornment, such as braided hair and
the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.
Instead, it should be that of your inner self,
the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet
spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
For this is the way the holy women of the past
who put their hope in God used to make
themselves beautiful.

-NIV

That passage just opened up my eyes and I saw things in a whole new light. I have been focusing so much on how I NEED to be at a certain weight in order to feel/be beautiful that I have completely disregarded my inner worth.

To love yourself is to love God...

...and God has blessed me so much.

I have a man in my life that loves me for me and for everything that I am. He tells me that I am beautiful both inside and out. And I thank God for He has blessed me with the love of my life - Joshua Matthew Miller.

I have a wonderful and loving family that supports me in everything.

I have amazing friends and our friendships will last a lifetime.

Happiness and love is all around me.

It is time to be happy and love myself for who I am. Only God can define me and no one else [Thank you Camille...I love you!!].

<3

November 25, 2010

A Time to be Thankful <3

Happy Thanksgiving!!

Tis the time to be thankful, then again you should always be thankful for what you have and who you have in your life. Butt it is this time of year that just amplifies the feeling of being grateful.

My bay area family is in town, they arrived last night. I love it when the family gets together. The house is filled with tons of laughs and love. Awesome times indeed.

The love my life called me this morning!! Like always it was amazing to hear his voice. Today his is birthday!! I am glad he called because I got to greet him a happy birthday. I miss him so much. I cannot wait until he comes back to me.

Currently we are all falling asleep on the couch just waiting for the time to pass. We are having dinner our aunts house. We are all ready to go but dinner isn't until 6pm.

to be continued...

November 20, 2010

70 days...

My honeybee has been gone for 70 days now.

Many more to go...

Across the ocean...

I sit and wait until my Sailor returns to me.

Procrastination at its finest...

My goal for the day was to complete all assignments for my last criminal justice class. Mission - failed. I have yet to start anything. BAHAHAH! I blame free HBO for the weekend, cold/rainy weather and sheer mental laziness. LOL!

I did workout though. I worked up a pretty good sweat. Felt pretty dangnabit good. I will have a second workout sesh later on...after I attempt to do some assignments.

Anyhoo...I figured while I am on the good ol' MBP I would type up a blog post. Soooo here I am. Typing away.

This past week was pretty blah. The only highlight of my entire week was a phone call from my honeybee <3

Golly I miss him so much. It was amazing to hear his voice. He always brightens my day. I am not gonna lie...the day he called I was feeling kind of down. I didn't hear from him for a couple of days and I was being a Debbie downer because of that. And then...he calls and no more Debbie downer. LOL. He did receive the package I sent him and he said he loved it. YAY!

I love that man so much. I am counting the days until he returns to me.

I never knew love until I met my darling Joshy. Yes I am going to be a total cheeseball right now. So bare with me. LOL.

Yes I love my family and my dearest friends. But the love I have for Joshy is different. My heart pitter patters for him. I have said this before and I will say it again...God has truly blessed me with the love of my life.

I cannot wait to go apartment hunting with him and moving in together. It is going to be a new chapter in this book of life. I am looking forward to turning the page. =]

xoxo,
Jesse

November 15, 2010

65 days.

My honey has been gone a little over two months now. Thank the stars the days are flying by. I have a countdown number but it is probably not accurate. So I'm just counting up the days until he returns home. All I know is that March/April is the ETA.

I know people are probably sick and tired of reading my - I miss and love my Joshy - Facebook statuses, tweets and blogs about how much I love him. OH WELL. Just gotta deal with it. LOL.

I have been truly blessed with the love of my life and my soulmate <3

MmmHmmm.


xoxo,
Jesse

November 14, 2010

5 Month-sary!!

Today the love of my life and I have been together officially for five months!!

He called me 2am Saturday from the middle of the ocean. It was amazing to hear his voice. I miss him so very much. I cannot say it enough...I LOVE HIM!

Today was an okay day. I went with the parental unit, aunts and uncle to their town fiesta over at Rancho Del Rey Middle School. It was ooookay. I am not going to lie....I was so bored out of my mind. LOL.

Afterwards we just came home and now they are watching the Pacman fight from last night. I slept through the entire fight last night. I was so sleepy I could barely keep my eyes open. Hahaha. I didn't miss much. Filipino man won.

Right now as I am typing away I am also printing out this weeks lecture topics for my online class. I have senoritis major! I just want to be done already. I meet with my new advisor this coming Thursday. I need to discuss some of my classes with this new advisor. She seems pretty cool...but we have only communicated through email.

Lemme see...I have a paper due this Saturday. And have I started? HEKK NO! Will do sometime this week. Maybe. HAH! Like I always say - I put the PRO and ASS in procrasstinator. BAHAHA!

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I ate too much this weekend. I haven't worked out since Thursday. Soooo that means I probably gained 50 million lbs. Bleh. I still need to put in a run tonight. I have to get back on track pronto. My goal was to reach 160 lbs by the time Joshy comes home. BUTT that seems unreachable right now. I don't think I can ever be that skinny. So I am shooting for 180-190lbs. I have only a little ways to go in order to reach that range. I am not shy to talk about weight. I have worked really hard to get to where I am today. I lost about 70 lbs...give or take a few. But I sure did lose a lot of weight. It is hard right now to lose more. I hit a major plateau these past two weeks and it is something that has been bumming me out big time.

I think I will insert a before and after picture riiiight here...


The picture on the left was taken in 2009 around this time [the Holidays]. The picture is a team picture from my work. And the one on the right was taken yesterday [11/13/2010]. Sooooo it has been a year since I started getting on the lose weight track. And it has been a tough journey...and it is still ongoing.

Gotta keep trucking. LOL.

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I am a sad, sad panda right now. I really miss my Joshy. I miss him so much my heart aches.

I LOVE JOSHUA MATTHEW MILLER <3

xoxo,
Jesse

November 07, 2010

CHOKED!

So while I was waiting for my parental unit to return from church I was watching television. And an Applebee's commercial showed. It was a commercial about Veterans Day - Veteran's and active duty military eat free. Well they had footage of active military returning home from their deployment. The footage they had made me tear up! Just a little. LOL!

It made me think of my darling Joshy's homecoming. I am so going to cry when I see him. Not like the balling boohoo crying...the tears of joy crying. LOL. I cannot wait for him to come home to me.

I am looking forward to starting a new chapter with him. Moving in with him is going to be tons of fun! LOL. Yay!

xoxo,
Jesse

October 31, 2010

Back to life...

My mini vacay has come to an end. I am currently at OAK International Airport, sitting by my gate. I still have one more hour to kill. The airport is pretty dead right now.

Oooh...HAPPY WHORAWEENY! LOL!!

Halloween is the time of year for your inner slut to come out...per Barney Stinson BAHAHA!

My weekend here in the Bay Area was fun. Good times hanging out with the cousins. I am kind of bummed that the weather is starting to pick up the day I leave. Since I got here Thursday it has been cold, cloudy and rainy. Today...of all days...it is Sunny and warm. So lame! Mother nature so does not like me right now. Hahaha.

Let me recap on my fun filled weekend...

I arrived Thursday night past 9 because my flight was delayed a good 35 mintues. My lovely lady cousins, Kaybee, Deniece and Camille picked me up. Later on that evening around 11pm, Kaybee and I hit up the gym.

Friday we all got ready in the morning and just chilled out together. It was fun...we ate of course. So yah...no diet over the weekend. HAHAHA! I've been dieting since December and I needed a break. My cousins kept pressuring me...HAHAHA! I love them. Anyhoo...on Saturday we went to Fisherman's Wharf Pier 39. I drove my aunts car. And that was fun to walk around and just enjoy the sights. Our older cousin, Kuya Jhon, met up with us at Ghiradelli [amazing!]. And from there we had dinner at a sushi restaurant in Sunnyvale. Then back to Hayward where we just chilled in the house.

Today, Sunday, I was up when my darling Sailor called me at 3:42am. Hahaha. I miss him and love him so much! We talked about random stuff, and we talked about moving in together when he gets back. I am pretty excited. Just five more months.

He has been gone 51 one days today. Just have to hang in there. I am very happy the days are going by rather quickly.

So yah...we discussed getting an apartment together. I am really looking forward to that.

Ooooh I have been super sick since I got here. Of course during my mini vacay I just had to get sick. I still feel yucky. I cannot breathe through my mouth, my head hurts and my throat is bugging me. Yay me! LOL!

I am super sleepy right now. I think I am calling in sick to work tomorrow. I seriously do not feel so well. My body aches too. Ugh.

Even though the weather was super crappy...I had a good time. It was much needed.

Well...time to surf the web. LOL!

Til next time.

xoxo,
Jesse

October 28, 2010

Airport Blues...

Yah so I am here sitting by my gate...and my flight is 35 minutes late. Yippeee [major sarcasm here]. As I am sitting here I get a text message from Southwest Airlines stating that my flight is now at 7:35pm. Yah thanks...I am already here. Gaaaah this bites.

Good thing I brought my MBP and my school stuff. Already posted on one discussion board. Two more to go! Then book work and then makeup chat since I did not attend it on Tuesday evening. I hate attending those things...we have to have headphones with a mic so we can participate. Participate my [insert A word here]!! HAHAHAHA! The purpose of classes online are to avoid dealing with people. Well...at least for me it is. BAHAHAHA! Don't get me wrong, I did not mind attending classes onsite. I met the most awesomest people and made the greatest of friends. BUTT being on campus two nights a week for five hours is not fun. Especially if you have to work 6am Monday through Friday. These online classes are convenient. I just do not like participating in the chat rooms. They are so lame. LOL.

Change of subject...

I am surprised...there are a lot of people here. I wonder where they are all going? I mean it is a weekday. Where do people have to go on a Thursday night?? HAHAHA. Well as for me...I decided to give myself a much needed long weekend. LOL. Time for some fun with family and friends in the Bay Area!! YAY!

Tomorrow night I am having dinner with two of my SFSU gal pals. I cannot wait! It has been ages since we were all together. I miss them dearly.

Then Saturday is a day in the city with the cousins and a possible meet up with my good friend Norbert. He is my first little older brother. Hahaha. Krod is my second. Anyhoo...I have not heard from Norbert in 5 years and homie hits me up via aim! It was so good to hear from him. I was the youngest when we worked in the lab together. And he always had my back like an older brother. Hopefully I get to see him this weekend. It would be totally awesome.

Then I come back home Sunday evening. I'll be home by 6pm. I wanted to be home when the trick-or-treaters came by.

I think I am coming down with something. I currently have a headache [probably from the AC up in this mug] and my throat is killing me! I cannot afford to get sick! I have no sick hours. HAHAHAHAHA! Plus I need to save any possible sick and vacation hours for the trip to Oregon Joshy and I are going to take when he comes home. I am going to meet his Mother!! I am already nervous. It is absolutely redonkulous. Hahaha. Joshy said I am the first girl he is bringing to meet his Mom. I do hope she likes me.

HAHAHA...for once I actually blogged...a completely random blog. But at least it is something.

Kk. Til next time.

xoxo,
Jesse

October 26, 2010

My Homepage

Check this out!!

NiokoOno

I discovered this via Tumblr and had to make one. It is so awesome. Mine is currently under construction.

xoxo,
Jesse

October 23, 2010

Simple Saturday.

Today is my simple Saturday. Just a day to stay home and mellow out. Well...I still have a final to take and a paper to complete but other than that it is just a day to chill out. LOL.

The final is only 30 short answers...with 45 minutes to take. And the paper is 7-9 pages, APA format. I have done a 15 page paper in as little as 4 hours. I can handle 7-9 pages. LOL. The only thing missing is my research. That will probably take the most time.

Golly gee...I really miss my Joshy. Okay I know I keep saying I miss him. I cannot help it. I really do! LOL!

Hmmm...I am avoiding doing kind of school work right now. What can I say? I put the PRO and ASS in procrasstinator. BAHAHA!!

October 22, 2010

The Little Things.

This morning my darling Sailor called me from Malaysia. I was not in the best of moods this morning, but when he called my little moodiness went away and I was back to good ol' sunshine Jesse.

I miss him so much. He has been gone exactly 41 days. Yes I am still counting. The days are actually going by rather quickly, which is amazingly awesome! LOL!

I just have to hang in there for the next five months or so.

I CAN DO THIS!

October 19, 2010

Fairytales and Dreams.

I am in love <3

I am a total cheeseball. I KNOW! LOL! But I cannot help it. For once in my life I am happy...truly happy. God has blessed me with a wonderful man and I am deeply in love with him.

He may be away at sea, but every day my love for him grows more and more.

I cannot wait until he comes back home and I can be in his arms again.

I love fairytales and I have always dreamt about meeting my true love.

Fairytales are real, and dreams do come true.

xoxo,
Jesse

Another day...

Another day has come and gone which means another day closer to the love of my life coming home.

He called me earlier this morning and the sound of his voice made me smile. I miss him so much.

He mos def made my day <3

xoxo,
Jesse

October 17, 2010

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I am a sad, sad daisy. I really miss my Joshy. I haven't received an email from him in a few days. But he did call me yesterday morning. The only thing was that he kept getting disconnected. His last attempt to talk to me, he warned me he might lose connection again. He managed to say "I love you and I miss you." I know he is a busy bee, and he may not have any signal or network up on the ship. I guess I just got so used to hearing from him everyday and now that I don't hear from him I am kinda sad. LOL.

I love and miss my Sailor very much <3

xoxo,
Jesse

October 04, 2010

A Poem.

Breathless
by Jerni

I stand still as the world passes me by
I close my eyes and try to catch my breath
I breathe in, breathe out

My eyes are open and suddenly I lose my breath

You stand in front of me with eyes so full of love
It leaves me breathless

Suddenly we are the only ones standing in the middle
In the middle of nowhere
But nowhere is somewhere when I am with you

The world stops and I finally can breathe
Every breath I take is because I live to love you
To love you with all my heart for all eternity

I stand still as the world passes me by
But it does not matter now that you are with me
Together we stand, hand in hand
Ready to take on the world


Monday, Monday.

I am super duper sleepy right now as I sit in the juror lounge, lounging around. LOL! I did not bring any homework with me because today is my day to do everything else besides school work. Hahaha.

Well, another day hanging in the courthouse while deliberation is in process. Oy vey. Eh...I should not really complain, it is another day off from work after all. =]

I miss my Joshy. I know I say it over and over again...especially on Facebook and Twitter. LOL! But I cannot help it. I really, really miss him. It is like a part of me is missing. I cannot wait until he comes back to me =] I love him.

He has been gone a total of 23 days. Yes I am counting the days until he comes back. Surprisingly the days have been going by rather quickly. I guess it is because I have been trying to keep myself super busy.

I am going back to hula...I am super stoked. I will go back sometime this month. Right now my class is learning a new dance, and the Kokua said that it would be better to come back after that. She said she doesn't want me to be overwhelmed. I am just waiting on the call and I am going back to dance. YAY!

Ooooh!! On Friday [Oct. 1st] my Mom purchased an elliptical. I motorized one! I am pretty excited. I already cancelled my gym membership. I'll save 30 dollars a month and gas! I've been working out at home anyway. We have a treadmill, treadclimber and a Bowflex. HAHAHA. Free membership.

xoxo,
Jesse


October 03, 2010

Good Times.

My broski and I just got home from watching a movie with my dearest gal pal Laney. She wanted to watch a comedy and I was in the mood for something scurry. So we opted for Case 39...and I must say it is an okay movie. It had its jumpy OMG moments, and it had its WTF moments. HAHAHA! It was a decent scurry movie for sure.

It is always fun catching up with Laney. Even though we haven't seen each other in almost a year...we always pick up where we left off. We had lots of laughs. I heart that girl. Lol.

It is past midnight and I am exhausted. Time to hit the shower and get some Zzz's.

xoxo,
Jesse

October 02, 2010

MmmHmm.

He wrote me another poem =]

I am truly thankful and blessed to have him in my life.

<3

I love Joshua M. Miller

xoxo,
Jesse

One of my favorite poems...

Sirena [the Mermaid] Sings
by Barbara J. Pulmano Reyes

It's the beauty of a cloudless sky
And rolling hills of green
Or rocky mountains caped with snow and fragrant pines
That I smell on your skin
Or the warmth of the sun baking you browner and browner
As you sit by the ocean, stare fixed on the horizon

Into my world I wish I could bring you
Draw you inside and keep you warm
I could teach you to fly
If you dream about floating away
Into a timeless quiet
Where soft green light transforms us both
Into fairy tales and fantasy

Somehow, there is a way
Between our two wolrds

We still meet
At that point where land meets water
Where my songs lead you to the ends of the earth --
There, I am waiting with arms to embrace you
With passion that forces the waves to crash onto rocks
And a love that absorbs the heat of the morning sun

BAHAHA!!

Messing Around w/ PhotoBooth. LOL!! from NiokoOno on Vimeo.

My Love.

My love for Joshua grows more and more each day. He called me earlier today and it was so nice to hear his voice. The first time he called me was last Sunday September 26 @ 4:55am. I actually teared up when he called. I miss him so much. Hearing his voice just brightened my day. After we talked for a bit...a little while later he emailed me and wrote me a short poem. I won't post it here. LOL. I printed out his email and pasted it into my actual journal. No one has ever written anything for me. And my heart melted. Hahaha. I probably sound like a total cheeseball right now. But I cannot help it. I love him so much <3



xoxo,
Jesse

October 01, 2010

Another test.

HAHAHA! I totally downloaded another trial version...this time just a blog editor. I have 30 days with this trial. Yay for trying things out before making a purchase.

Test, test, testing.

I just downloaded a trial version of MacJournal. It is a software for Mac to edit blogs and also create journals. Lets see if I like this and if it is worth the purchase of $39.95.

September 29, 2010

Hollah fo updates!!

I know I said I would update this blog on a regular basis. And I have yet to actually do that. So here is a little update on these past few days...

I have been in court for about a week and a half. Jury duty is interesting. The end. Hahahaha.

School is cool. Almost done!!!!!! Only three classes left [I think?]. LOL. I just know that I will be completely done either December or January. I need to check my degree progress report.

My Joshy called me last Sunday morning. It was so great to hear his voice. At first I thought I was dreaming because he called a little bit before 5am. I kinda tear'd up a little. Hahahaha. I miss him so much. He totally made my day. He is doing well. =]

Also PIFA was over the weekend. I went on Sunday with my auntie Alpha. It was tons of fun. I got two shades darker and I now have major tan lines. LOL!! Mr. Sun was booming over the weekend and it felt like Summer.

Mmmm that is pretty much it I guess. Nothing too exciting. The main highlight was the phone call from my sailor. I miss him so much.

xoxo,
Jesse

September 28, 2010

September 23, 2010

Sitting & Waiting.

I am still at the courthouse. And they are still picking jurors. I was lucky enough to be in the last group where they will pick the 12 jurors [major sarcasm]. Bleh.

As I am sitting here with my iPhone...I am left with my thoughts. So I figured I might as well put my thoughts in a blog entry.

Well I think I will pick one topic that is currently floating in my head and that is - how do you know if certain people are meant to be in your life or not? For instance there are a few people that I have been there for 100% but when I need someone they aren't there for me. It's like they totally brushed me off. So are they meant to be in my life or not? At first I was kind of bummed about it. I thought there must have been something I did. But now I'm pretty much whatever about it. Hahaha. Oh well is my mindset right now.

I will always be there for them. If they need a friend I will be there. It is okay if they aren't there for me. It's not the end of the world. LOL.

My question cannot really be answered. God is the only one that decides if someone is supposed to be in my life or not. I'll leave it all up to Him. He is the homie and he knows whassup. Hahaha.

Okay so that is that. Hahaha.

Mann oh mann I really miss my Joshy. It is day 12 of his deployment. I am counting the days until my sailor returns <3

xoxo,
Jesse



September 22, 2010

My Sailor <3




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Something New.

Ahhh yess a brand new blog. The design of my blog is still a work in progress. I want to make it look pretty nifty...but that requires some good sit down time. Which I will have after this week. For now what you see will do. Haha.

I decided to start a new blog because there are a plethora of new things happening in my life...and what a better way of sharing them than to start a brand new blog. Hollerific!

I am pretty excited to start blogging. Like for real blogging. HAH!

My next post will be a real one. Promise!